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First off I want to clarify and apologize. All the facts and details of my posts and questions are 100% correct and accurate. But, all this is about my mom not dad and my name is Dan. Why did j do all this. My mom who is suffering through all this has been on boards such as this for years. And not only was I trying to keep her judo from being seen by friends, I also wanted to keep my name different should she go back on computer and see all this. Know this all sounds crazy and I do apologize in advance.
She went into hospice home Friday after 5 days in hospital. There was nothing more treatment wise they could do because nothing was changing in her condition. Friday she seemed ok. She had a good appetite and kept asking for food and ate what she could. Her best friend came in from out of state and hasn't left her side sleeping there in her room. Friends for 66 years!! :) Saturday rolled around and her appetite was less, she was having hard time swallowing, and she slept like 13 hours straight with all the morphjne, atavan and sleep aid she had. Her motor skills are weakening too. Can't go to bathroom on own and just moving her arms to try to do stuff is hard. She is down to 88#. Throughout the day she kept telling her friend she was ready to go. Asked to speak to a Chaplin and asked for a rosary, a blue one which they had. She had her last rights given to her in the hospital by a priest when I stepped out for a minute. I was sure she would pass in her sleep last night. But but she was up at 7 when I made it back. Killed me to go to sleep and leave her but her friend was sleeljng in pull out bed. She had a really rough morning and they upped her morphjne to 40m and contained the atavan too. She was really scaring me and I had all the grand kids come see her. She can't talk above a whisper and spent whole day sleeljng though she heard the kids voices and acknowledged they were there. And she still Responds to me without question and I'm the go to name. Think all the activity and voice were starting to get her too worked up so had to add some atavan and she was still coherent enough to hear the voice of her previous grand children she loves so much!! I'm glad I made the decision to call them. I would have regretted if she passed and they didn't get to see her. Btw all the grand kids are over 21. So wasn't too traumatic but I can guarantee what they saw was a shock. She is literally a shell of herself and even though I've been with her 24/6 for the last 6 months which there where 3 hospital stays and 3 nursing home visits, I myself am a bit in shock at this woman I'm looking at. This is not the kick 11 mom who could and would do anything!! I truly belief this is it for her and not only is she at peace with that, but I am too. No person should ever have to go through this or end up in this state. My father passed away 19 yeArs ago of a heart attack so I didn't have to deal with anything like thus with him. And knowing he didn't suffer at all brought me much peace when he passed.
I want to thank everyone for their many kind messages and advice to my posts. And also apologize to anyone who might be offended by my secrecy or I guess lies bout identity of my mom and I. I truly think you are all great with what you do here and it has been great for nf to read the posts and your own stories
I hope everyone had a great Easter today wish you all great health and great days ahead!
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