hi everybody, I'm typing this with voice text because quite honestly my fingers aren't as Nimble as they used to be and neither is my eyesight during typing. Therefore if anybody's concerned about my grammar or lack of punctuation or extra punctuation or capital letters that don't belong where they belong... Yeah I'm really sorry about that.
A few months ago I posed a question about where I'm going to end up. I talked about my first experience with trying to go on disability and I talked about fact that I was knowing that very soon my living quarters will change drastically.
About 3 weeks ago I re filed for disability this time being able to actually complete the entire thing with the help of the caseworker. But because I I am working and because I earn about $1,300 per month they won't grant me disability despite the fact that the lung doctors paperwork clearly indicates that I should be on disability. And the lung doctor is in complete disbelief that they're denying me disability because I'm working a job for 28 hours a week if I'm lucky that are into me about $1,300 a month if I'm lucky. I wouldn't be working at all if I was eligible to just be on disability and get this over with. How can their $1,200 limit preclude me from being able to get out of the workforce that is fatiguing me by the middle of the day... long before I even have to try to struggle my way home. They tell me I should quit my job and file again. How? How do I buy groceries ? how do I buy water? the water in my home is disgusting even with the help of a filtration system ...I must buy water. How do I pay for a cell phone bill , I don't want to be left out of the big wide world because I don't have money to stay stay in touch online. I can't just quit there's no money in the bank there's no savings there's no nothing and there's no hope. And this week when I went to the lung doctor cuz I'm having more trouble breathing it turns out I now I have a lung infection so now I'm on prednisone and a z pak. Not even able to get to the job so paycheck-to-paycheck is going to have a big missing spot in the middle... for every day I'm out because of this damn infection.
The housing people indicate to me that unless I can prove I can't work more hours they want to see me to get a better job before they'll offer to help me. If I can't go on disability I can't prove to the housing people any of the information they demand.
My sisters are coming to take my dad who is 91 years old down to live with them in another state. The house has reverse mortgage many many years ago and when dad leaves or declares that he has left to the bank... then the bank takes over ownership and myself and my brother ( and my brother and I are a different topic with its own difficulties) will be told to leave. I've known this for a while I've been trying to get help... But now the middle of September Looms and that's when apparently I'm supposed to find another place to live paid for by a job that only gets me $1,300 a month which isn't enough to qualify for housing or live anywhere and it's too much to qualify for disability. And right now all I want to do is Scream.